Tuesday, April 28, 2009

the last photo

Emerging from the throngs of the Covered Market, I turn my open face to the sun, smiling as I bite into the smooth perfect skin of a whole red tomato.
His lens turns on me as the sweet juice bursts out, dripping down my chin. My eyes are bright with laughter, my fingers reaching to wipe my mouth clean, like I could keep my decorum by cupping a bare hand around the splashes of life bursting forth from both the fruit and myself.
He was stepping back to get even the hem of my eyelet sundress into the frame when he slipped.
I developed the two-year-old roll of film at the local 1 hour place. Sitting in the dim bedroom, I quietly stick each photo, one by one, into a small album. My fingers linger on the last one, the one that caught my face at the edge of the frame as it transformed from a smile to a gasp, stuck somewhere in the middle of blank confusion, the scene in front of me, behind the camera slowly registering.
I close the album and write, in plain letters, 'HOME' on the cover before reaching up to place it at the end of the quite heavily laden bookshelf. I turn to watch him sleep, not a muscle budged nor a hair moved, since the moment his eyes closed as his head silently hit the pavement and my gasp pulled the last breath from my life.

Sunday, April 19, 2009

microphones

I went to this writing society launch party that was set up as an open-mic reading night. Before I went up to read a couple pieces, I hashed out all my nervousness (so I thought -- it's amazing how regenerative nerves can be) into a piece that I wrote then and there, messily scrawled on the back of a writing pad. It started, "I hate microphones." I intended to put it here but I seem to have misplaced it and I don't know where to start looking. Maybe it was purely sewn into the evanescence of that moment and no longer needed to exist afterwards. Though I'm quite sure I folded it up and placed it safely in my coat pocket. Maybe it fell out. I wonder.